User blog comment:Moon Snail/I welcome death./@comment-1518158-20141023021159

I don't think you really do. If you did, you wouldn't have come here and typed all this; instead, you'd be knocking on Death's door and asking him to kindly take you in. Since you did, I would assume that you still have hope. :)

At the risk of saying what you already responded to in your OP, I'll just suggest that you seek help if you really feel that down. If you don't want to take to someone irl, then anyone here on RNW or probably on the internet in general would be happy to have a convo with you. Hang in there.