Talk:News about my life (10/Jan/2020)/@comment-2189621-20200110233131/@comment-44760957-20200111024545

Hey, friend. It's me who posted this, Diary222. I'm really sorry if my post was too concerning. Please don't get too worried with me, I believe in myself and I'm giving an effort everyday to improve.

I think I'll seek a place where I can feel welcome and important. A better place than here, or to be more specific, a place where I feel bonded with people like me.

So, I'm probably going to leave this wiki.

If you want to know, the reasons why I post these things here is because:

1) I thought no one would really discuss a lot. I needed a place just to vent and tell my feelings and nothing else. That's because the specific reason why I want to leave my city is very painful to discuss with people. I can't accept this fact, it's too painful. So I can't discuss it.

2) I don't have a network of friends and family to support me. I have only one friend who I'm afraid to get closer (because I think he will harm me). I'm relatively close only to my nuclear family (Mom, Dad, Little Brother). I mean relatively because I don't talk a lot with them too. That's why I go here, so no one hurts me (I have ADHD with a symptom which makes rejection very painful, I very often do frightening things, but I mostly avoid doing them when I can).

Lastly: I have a therapist, but I need to have a community alongside a therapist.

And I didn't reply to your first message because I was too mentally exhausted and emotionally detached at the time, so I couldn't think or express myself in an acceptable way.