User blog comment:Sorenrulescool5/Important News/@comment-4110572-20181005182148

I was going to make a separate blog post about it, but I figured it'd just be better to put it here.

I banned Feru after finding out what he discussed to Pixel on the wiki. Not long after, Kona sent me that screenshot linked in the blog. He told me this to not tell anyone of it because of fears of witchhunting. And I didn't for a few "reasons":

- Not wanting to start more drama (at this time, a lot of Discord/wiki drama was going on)

- Not wanting to piss off kona (i'll get to that)

- a misguided hope that Feru himself wasnt aware he was doing anything wrong since he did drop the dating thing with Kona.

I rationalized all of these "reasons" (really they are excuses) at the time and so they made sense...at the moment. But a big part of me didn't want to keep quiet about it. But I didn't want to piss off Kona which in retrospect, was a non-issue because the safety of minors is more important. I understand Kona not wanting people to be witchhunted, but pedophilles deserve what comes to them. My misguided hope came from the fact that Feru seemed to be unaware of certain eqituette, but that's no excuse. If you're over 18, you should be mindful of what you're discussing to who, no matter what.

I will be blunt, I disagree with Kona on a lot of things, but I keep my tongue tight about it for the sake of the peace. Among that and the "reasons" I listed, I let this information not be fully known when I banned Feru. This was a huge mistake on all levels from practical to moral. I should of followed my conscience and disregarded what he told me to tell all of you but because of me not wanting to start shit with him or everyone...I didn't. And I've regretted this since.

I believe that regret doesn't really matter because regardless of whatever intent I had, I've hurt the people I'm suppose to be protecting. I should have been transparent about the situation, regardless of what Kona told me, because I am an adminstrator. I'm suppose to be anyway.

If you can't forgive me, I completely understand. I don't take these things lightly and the fact that I did for the sake of some stupid attempt at keeping peace makes me downright sick to my stomach. All of that said, I will learn from this and improve on this grave error. I can only hope you all will let me.

Now...I've mentioned this on Discord, but I believe I should no longer be an administrator after this. Some believe that to be too much, but right now I think it's a reasonable punishment. I don't know if this will be done, but if any bureaucrats want to do this, you're welcome to. I deserve it.

Again, I fucked up horribly. And I mean it when I say I'm sorry and I will do everything I can to never let this happen again. Thank you for reading.

- Ace Lad